Back home they knew just this version of me

I left Czech Republic at 19 with broken English and the kind of courage that only comes from not fully knowing what you are getting into. I did not have a plan. I had a feeling that something more was waiting for me in the UK, and I trusted it. This version of me somehow stayed alive even a decade later and I would slip into it every time I visited.

One dream ticked of my bucket list

By 25 I was in Paris, training at a dance academy, finally living a dream I had carried for years. But ambition alone does not prepare you for who you have to become to survive it - I had to change my mindset really fast. The pressure cracked something open in me. That crack led me to hypnotherapy, and two years later I was a qualified hypnotherapist myself.

I needed God in my life again

Then came the Gulf. Qatar. UAE. New friendships and new faith. I converted to Islam and experienced the most complete inner transformation of my life. My sense of identity, my values, my understanding of who I was, all of it shifted.

And somewhere between London, Paris, Dubai and Doha, I lost the thread of myself.

Empty bucket list - What now?

I had a great job, friendships, travel experience, a life that I enjoyed but I felt that something was missing. Every time someone asked "how are you?" I wanted to cry. I had no idea why. Which made it worse, because I had no reason to feel that way. So I assumed something was wrong with me.

I chased my bucket list thinking that would fill the gap. Ticked everything off. Stood there feeling nothing. Just a quiet, unsettling: cool. What now?

Who am I?

I felt like a completely different person depending on which room I walked into. My friends from Paris would probably not get on with my friends from London. Each group only knew one part of me. I was exhausted from switching between versions of myself, and quietly desperate to just be one whole person who belonged somewhere fully - at the time I didn't realise what the problem was.

That's what I thought about myself

I left a good job to follow my dreams and when that didn't fulfill me I searched for another job. Which I loved but my values weren't aligned with the environment. I could feel my body keeping the score and had to leave. There I started to realise that to overdeliver without limits (as I like to do) I will have to become self employed. And my career transition started - and another identity lag. Working on myself just made the gap even deeper.

No dreams, no why, stuck in between, trial and error until something worked

The shift did not come from another achievement or another move. It came from stopping. From doing the real inner work, through hypnosis, through journaling, through self guided exercises I developed for myself. From discovering that every productivity system and self improvement framework I had ever followed had been built for someone else, not for my nature, not for my cycle, not for the way I actually think and feel and work. So I built my own.

New dream, new vision & clear direction

Slowly, aligned with my femininity, I created a version of myself that could hold all the parts at once. The Czech girl and the muslimah. The dancer and the professional. The ambitious woman becoming a new entrepreneur and the one who just wanted to feel at peace. And when I walked into a room as that whole person for the first time and was genuinely accepted as the true me, everything shifted. The best of all those versions in upgraded new me feels like a superpower now.

That is the journey I now guide other women through. In private sessions and through NURA Community for women.